?

Log in

No account? Create an account
challenge #33 ~ WPP: Alex in exile - Law & Order: SVU Drabbles [entries|archive|friends|userinfo]
svu100

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ archive | journal archive ]

challenge #33 ~ WPP: Alex in exile [Feb. 18th, 2005|11:18 pm]
svu100
svu100
[projectcyborg]
title: outsider
author: julie levin russo
stats: Alex. brain-hurty meta. OTP, hold the smut.
words: 164 (oops!)
{...standard disclaimers...}

Exiled from herself, she watched her old life from the outside.

Every Tuesday, she tuned in for a glimpse of the spaces she’d once inhabited. Her exclusion was hermetic; her world unfolded in the television frame like the vista beyond a window (untouchable through the glass).

She couldn’t bring herself to watch the reruns (fragmentary, flickering pictures of what she’d known in the fullness of its presence), but one day she realized that her (prison)house had another window. At her computer, she typed in her (former) name and found archives of the more secret, cherished memories. Falling for Olivia, falling out with her, and then (always) falling again. The innumerable times they’d made love (in the bedroom, the restroom, the office). And records of the other lovers Olivia had turned to for solace (but each time with Alex’s name under her tongue).

She wanted to write the rest of their story. (Only from the outside did she discern the vastness of what she’d lost.)

{ this one practically wrote itself. remember when I said my bad habits drabble was the seed of a longer fic? well this bit was also sorta an idea for that one... I guess it's not so much a planned fic as a hoppy little bunny. we shall see (though I did promise mama). }
linkReply

Comments:
From: theholyinnocent
2005-02-20 09:00 pm (UTC)
Now, normally meta stuff just makes me go "oy vey" and roll my eyes...but this? This is really good, and I think it's because you capture the emotion so well, that longing of being on the outside and wanting to get back "into the story"--She wanted to write the rest of their story. Casting Alex as "one of us" is a brilliant stroke indeed. And the line that follows it, sosad:

Only from the outside did she discern the vastness of what she’d lost.

::sigh:: Well done!

Now, you aren't ignoring your schoolwork, are you? (I have to get on someone's case, because right now my girl is ignoring her school work and taking a nap!) :)
(Reply) (Thread)
From: projectcyborg
2005-02-21 06:52 pm (UTC)
yay! am so chuffed that you like it *preens*

you capture the emotion so well, that longing of being on the outside

write what you know, and all *g*

Now, you aren't ignoring your schoolwork, are you?

nooooo ma'am. never!
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
[User Picture]From: giantessmess
2005-09-01 02:58 am (UTC)
I love this. *get's way to exited at all the layers*

..fragmentary, flickering pictures of what she’d known in the fullness of its presence.

...she realized that her (prison)house had another window. At her computer, she typed in her (former) name and found archives of the more secret, cherished memories.

dear god. is this a reference to the maintext on tv versus the internet fanon?
I love the two, vastly different 'windows'.

And I adore the last line.

*loves you - because now my meta-fic leanings feel very much validated*
(Reply) (Thread)
From: projectcyborg
2005-09-02 12:55 am (UTC)
*loves you back*
(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)